I wouldn't say I've suffered lately, that's for sure. But the emotional let down after a gig feels like a big ol' kick in the pants. So much emotion goes into putting a production up on on the stage. Even more emotion as it crashes to a halt. Compounding this "problem" are all the friends I made during the past few months. It's weird to think I've spent more time in Brussels this year than home in Berlin. And now it's over.
So I sat down and rested this week in my non-work time. And I'm mostly still drawing a blank artistically. I also perform Cavalleria Rusticana with Waltraub Meier tomorrow in Hamburg, so it's hard to assimilate all I'm feeling. So much emotion coming out of the Parsifal. 24 hours off, home in Berlin, not even time enough to do laundry, and in rehearsals with Simone Young, Waltraub and Andrej Dobber, screaming and getting ourselves all worked up singing this verismo piece. I feel very much at ease during the day but…
I find it hard to process all the emotion…
I will. If there's one thing I do, it's what Rocky describes. I keep going.
Just wish it wasn't so lonely
4 comments:
This post just makes me become silent.
Have to think about it.
It's a dream theater.
Bruno.
Not so lonely maybe, my guess is that many figurants are having a hard time to cope with all the emotions coming out of Parsifal as well. Oh, and this is why they keep following your blog :P !
You might be alone in processing them, but it could not be different, it is always a personal thing.
Cheers and good luck with the performance tonight.
Laura
Yes, feeling the same as Andrew, Bruno and Laura, and many others I am sure: Parsifal was so powerful, it leaves us a bit "empty" and k.o. But ... look, you all ... the sky is brightening up: thanks to Andrew's blog, we keep the ties of "our" Parsifal's community alive and well!
Cheer up, Andrew, you are not alone, you are with us in our thoughts.
Isabelle
Dear Andrew,
It's been hard and still is to (re)adjust ourselves to the reality of our daily life. We had built a temporary but strong community. We were given the extreme honor of collaborating with you and the other professionals, sharing your passion, your fears, your moments of doubts. Yes, like Lao said, I'm also one among many figurants who is having a hard time to cope with the after Parsifal. May I admit that I'm feeling like an orphan? I guess it is only temporary but right now it is really hard.
And I do agree with Isabelle : keep sharing your thoughts with us on your blog. As surprising as it can be, many of us need it in order to keep the bond.
And you are with us in our thoughts. We will never forget this wonderful out of time adventure...
Nathalie
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